When you Google the
word ‘trust’, the fourth thing that comes up (behind ‘trust deeds’, ‘trust
definition’and ‘trust tax return’) is ‘trust issues’. Oh Google, you know me so
well.
I’m one of those
people who flips to the last page of a book when the drama gets intense, and
Googles the plot summary of a movie if it gets too nail-bitey. You’d think that
would reassure me. But, no. Even when I know the story’s going to end
brilliantly, I still skim-read/skip through the uncomfortable parts. It’s as if
I can’t quite believe that everything really is going to work
out.
Despite years of
reading metaphysical texts, communicating with angels and now working with
energy, trusting the Universe to sort out my problems remains a major stumbling
block for me. On the surface, this makes no sense – I’ve already seen proof
that the Universe has my back, again and again and again. But even though I
believe a perfect outcome is possible, there’s a part of me that
doesn’t believe that it’s probable.
Whenever I find
myself on my knees in particularly difficult periods, the message I
get from the angels, again and again and again, is along these lines: ‘Trust
us. Let go. It’s going to be fine.’ I believe them, but I’m also doubtful.
Which is normal. It’s not possible, I don’t think, to have a learning
experience or challenge that isn’t accompanied by at least a small degree of
fear. The trick is learning to let go of the fear so it doesn’t hold you back
from living a big life. All I have to do is have faith and relinquish control
over the outcome… if only it were that easy!
Here’s the problem –
when I worry, fret and despair, I’m getting in my own way. My negative energy
increases, blocking solutions and contributing to an adverse result.
There’s a quote that
gets bashed about on social media all the time and it goes like this: ‘Everything
will be OK in the end. If it’s not OK, it’s not the end.’ This is posted endlessly
because it’s true – even though things may not work out exactly how you had
imagined, they’ve worked out the way they were supposed to. And often that’s better
than you had imagined, or there’s something better coming up. In either
outcome, you will be OK. You are always OK. (I’m saying this to you guys, but I’m
sure you realise I’m really saying it to myself.)
I dealt out the ‘trust’
card in an angel card reading the other day and I was told that that message
was for me as well as the person I was reading for. That message was: trust it
is all going to be OK.
And it will. I’ve
already been told my business is going to thrive. I’ve already been told I’m
going to meet the perfect man for me. Therefore, there’s nothing to worry
about, right? Right? RIGHT?!
Everything is under control.
Not my control, but that’s probably for the best. (It’s fair to say the Universe
does a better job of running my life than I do.)
And then they all
lived happily ever after.